I’m tired of this country

I’m at a point in my life when I’m really thinking hard about what my post-career life is going to be. I’ve worked to position myself in what I hope to be a reasonably comfortable existence. My modest 2-family home will be paid off in about 6 years and I have no other debt. Beyond my children, brother and friends, I don’t anticipate any ties to this country to remain once I retire. 

I think I want out.  

As a first generation American, my commitment to this country is negligible. I don’t have generations of family history tying me to the “United” States. Hell, I don’t think there’s a single family grave or place of significance tethering me to this land which has been built upon a foundation of patriarchal white supremacist beliefs.  

I want better than what this country offers.

I don’t want to live in a country that believes more in bans on women’s bodies and library books than it does on weapons. 

I don’t want to live in a country which celebrates the uber wealthy, while vilifying the indigent.

I don’t want to live in a country in which it is easier to buy a gun than baby formula.

I don’t want to live in a country that earns money by charging high interest rate loans to those seeking college educations and the related opportunities afforded to those who obtain degrees.

I don’t want to live in a country in which mass shootings regularly occur – in schools, places of worship, grocery stores and performance venues.  

I don’t want to live in a country white washed to believe that people of color are minorities when, in fact, they are the global majority. 

I don’t want to live in a country where corporate profits and executive compensation are always prioritized over providing benefits and a paying living wage to workers. 

I don’t want to live in a country that doesn’t reflect my beliefs, convictions or priorities.  

I don’t want to live in a country in which nearly a third of the population believes that White Replacement Theory is a genuine political conspiracy.  

I don’t want to live here.

Feel free to replace me.

5 thoughts on “I’m tired of this country

  1. Now you see what I see and feel and my longing to move to and live on the coast in Italy where I can eat amazing food, drink some of the worlds best wines and live among people I have loved my entire life. Please feel free to join me on the a Amalfi Coast and in the winter we can ski in the Italian Alps. I no longer like it here, this country has lost its moral compass.

  2. I’ve lived through this so many times, from at least the Nixon administration, it is always dire. But this is MY country too & I want to make it worthy of me. I’m a citizen, I vote, I’m on the streets every week, my letters have been in the newspapers, I speak up. If I go someplace else I will be a guest, I will have no say in what goes on, except as a citizen of the Earth. I don’t want to abandon my country to the forces to which I am opposed. You can’t find the perfect place elsewhere, it is within you. Vaclav Havel said, “Hope is not the conviction that something will turn our well, but the certainty that the things we do make sense, regardless of how it turns out.” I’m here for the future of my country & my children & grandchildren.

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